Always be Your First Teacher

Good morning friends! I’m almost finished with The Zen of Recovery, by Mel Ash. I have made it a point to take my time with this one and feel it and not rush it. I like to think about things and work on applying them. I have a few chapters left, and the last one really stuck out to me.

The chapter was called: Killing the Buddha Instead of Ourselves. This chapter offered an approach on how to approach those we may consider our teachers. I have posted a bit about this in one of my earlier posts, but it points out how important it is for us to own our process and think for ourselves. There is no one right way to heal, and no single person who knows all. 

We can learn from anyone, even those who’s defects are very pronounced. The chapter states that everyone has defects, but the true teachers are the first to admit their own shortcomings. It also points out how common it is for a “teacher” to claim to know best. Sadly, this can be a way to consciously or unconsciously make their student fearful to be without them. I loved that Ash pointed out that it is not on us to judge the person teaching us, but that it IS on is to judge the quality of help we are being suggested toward.

I believe it is so important to learn to think for and advocate for ourselves at the end of the day. Staying humble and open-minded will allow us to continue to grow and learn. Ash said that we can awaken to our own potential, and that the teachings we practice are not seperate from us. We can find what works for us and adjust our program or practice according to where we are. 

I wanted to share this because I am a fan of sharing what makes me feel empowered in hopes that someone else might become empowered as well. Living our lives includes trusting our ability to follow our hearts/our intuition. 

Have a great day friends ๐Ÿ’œ



What it’s Like to Work at a Float Center

Good evening friends. I never post at night, so this is a little out of the ordinary for me. I suppose it is good to not be in such a strict routine. I am doing my best to keep things interesting and exciting over here.

So I decided to post a little about what my work situation is like, what I love about it, the little obstacles, all of that fun stuff! Here we go:

First, I love that it gives people an opportunity to help themselves, by tapping into what they already have within them. Floating empowers people to become better versions of themselves. There is no, becoming dependent on someone else in this form of therapy. I love that you never know how a float will affect someone. I also love that I have to be humble and in the moment to learn everything I can. I am pretty sure I’m in this for the long haul, so I’m in a pretty great position. Oh, and also, I get to float whenever I want! There’s that.

Now what I don’t like so much. Salt gets everywhere! I expected this, but damn, it isn’t always easy to get off of things. You also get hot as hell cleaning, because of the humidity. Also, my OCD is having a field day as far as cleanliness is concerned. I make sure that the pods are spotless and there isn’t a single hair anywhere in the float suites or the showers, and I check the pod about five times for salt. I have learned to view hair as the devil these past few weeks. It is rather silly. So yeah, cleaning is the not so fun part, but it builds character if you let it. I’m kind of appreciating the lessons. One is that nothing worth having comes easy. Great things take some work. I am looking at the big picture here, and the amazing potential Souler Float has. So, I wouldn’t call that too negative.

Anyway, thats it for now. I will keep y’all posted. Have a great night๐Ÿ’œ

Where I’m at..! Finding my Way

Good morning friends. I’ve been on a journey, as you know. Though I know I am meant to be here, it is not always easy. I felt a wide variety of emotions the past week. I am doing my best to sit in a place of non-judgment.

I noticed that when I am on my own, my defects as well as my strengths are magnified. I think this is why it almost forces you to change and evolve if you are on a path of self-development. I made some positive choices for myself this week like joining a gym down here, and deciding to strictly limit my facebook use.

I noticed myself feeling lonely. I felt the need to investigate that and dig into it and embrace it. I noticed that facebook was kind of holding me back in a sense. It gave me the illusion of feeling less alone. I also saw myself holding on to things as they were. I didn’t move to hold on to the same things I held on to in New York. 

So that is my deal this week. I hope all is well with you, my friends. 

Talk to you soon. 

Less Effort Can be More Effective

Hey friends! Happy Easter for those who celebrate. I have been putting all my energy into building my new life here in Florida, more like adding to my life. I don’t think I’ve ever been in more of a natural flow with life. I feel like I sort of just existed before recently.

I have been doing my best to stay out of my own way as much as possible. I’m done preventing myself from living, and with overcomplicating what goes on. I’m done with excuses also. I may still complain before doing things that aren’t exciting, but I am more aware of it, and I strive to do it less, and eventually not at all.  

I saw myself slipping into a routine that seemed comfortable, but I saw it and immediately challenged that tendency. I made myself go out and explore on my day off. I did things the old me never would have done. To someone without anxiety, going places like the beach by yourself and going into a supermarket with sunburn may not seem like a big deal. However, I used to stop myself often. Less effort can sometimes be just what you need. Floating more often has definitely helped me process my thoughts and emotions, and as a result, I am less in my head and more in my life. I am beyond grateful๐Ÿ’œ

So, if you don’t see me for a while, it is probably a good sign. I will be sure to check in once a week at least. Creating a “new life” takes energy, yet it is effortless. Thanks for following my journey and being a part of it. 

Have a great night all โœŒ๐Ÿผ. I will update soon. ๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

A Little Difference Between Floating & Meditation

Good morning friends! Happy Monday. I have been very busy the past week getting settled in and doing things for my job. I am currently working on that thing called “balance.” I have had all this energy behind me and have been geting serious inspiration and ideas left and right, and I have been practicing acting on these ideas without hesitation. I think this is called acting on your intuition. I am learning!

I am determined to get floating more into the mainstream in this part of Florida, and so far it has been amazing. I just wanted to write a short little post on a difference between floating and regular meditation. There seems to be a lot of misconceptions out there. I don’t think someone who has never floated can really speak on the issue, just as someone without anxiety can feel real empathy toward someone that does suffer from anxiety. 

I am only going to describe a physiological difference for times sake this morning. Meditation can have similar effects for sure, but not for every person, and it may take a very long time to achieve these changes if ever.  

As humans, we may have a difficult time sticking to good habits. We seek pleasure and avoid pain. If we don’t see results in a certain time, it is not uncommon for us to give up. There are a lot of factors that play into why we do what we do. There are physical, mental, emotional and physiological facors at play. 

It can be difficult for us to just sit there and meditate every day for a set amount of time. Sure there are different kinds of meditation, but there are tons of distractions around us at all times that can prevent us from getting into a deep state. 

In the tank, a lot more theta waves are produced by the brain. The brain produces theta waves during R.E.M sleep, hypnosis, lucid dreaming, and the period right before sleep and waking. Theta is the border between our conscious and subconscious mind. Learning to use a conscious theta state allows us the potential to access parts of our subconscious that our regular waking consciousness does not. In a theta state, the mind is more primed for learning and visualization, and makes it easier for us to manifest desired outcomes.

It is the absence of sensory information that allows us to enter a theta state with ease. I am not knocking meditation by any means. I think it is a great practice, but I wanted to throw this information out there. I still encourage people to meditate regularly, because maybe other peoples’ brains aren’t as easily distracted ๐Ÿ˜›. 

Have a great day my friends ๐Ÿ’œ

Sports Enhancements With Floating

While in the tank, every single muscle is allowed to rest and recover. While you may think that lying on your bed or sofa would have a similar effect, gravity is still applying vast amounts of stress on various parts of the body.

The rate of recovery after physical exercise is improved beyond recognition. What normally takes a long period of time – usually days for recovery from a marathon – the tank compresses into a number of hours. By relieving the stresses of gravity, floating takes the weight off strained bones, joints and muscles, and increases the efficiency of the blood circulating through the body. Recovery time after injury can also be much improved.

Athletes who use the tank in conjunction with visualization techniques have experienced rapid improvement in their sporting performances. As the brain enters the theta state, it becomes more open to suggestion. The central nervous system can essentially be trained to produce the ‘perfect performance’. The technique has been used for many years in countries such as Australia and America. Well-known athletes such as Carl Lewis have attributed part of their success to visualization within the float tank. Experts from sporting and medical institutions have carried out lots of research in controlled experiments. The quantifiable results have even led some to claim that an hour in the float tank using visualization and imagery is better than 10 hours of repetitive field practice.

Many people who experience pain or inflammation of any part of their body would turn to pharmaceutical remedies to alleviate these symptoms. Floatation therapy can also be a great benefit to relieving pain, using your own body to heal itself.

As soon as we submerge our bodies in warm water, we start to release endorphins. This relaxes both our bodies and our minds. In being relaxed, we no longer tense, strain or avoid areas where we experience pain, allowing these parts of our bodies to heal.

Because of all these benefits, athletes around the world have started to use floatation therapy. Athletes push their bodies to the very limits of human capabilities and this leads to significant and serious injuries. They are often in better physical condition than non-athletes, leaving them less susceptible to common infections, but when they do have an injury, it is often far more severe. However, you may have noticed that athletes also have very short recovery periods. Someone with a torn ligament, sprained ankle or even broken bone can be seen back on the field in a time so short that it leaves ordinary people baffled. Although this is also due to their fantastic physical condition and the fact that they have access to the best medical care in the world, it is also because they use floatation therapy

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Realizations, Acceptance and Love FTW

Good morning loves. I apologize again for not being as active on here. I will get in a good groove with everything soon, I promise. 

I started my new job yesterday! I am all settled in my new apartment. My Mom flew home yesterday. It was difficult leaving her, but I have had a lot to take care of that motivated me to be present and carry on. 

I absolutely love my new job. The people I work for are passionate and  thoughtful, and I couldn’t be happier at the moment about the way things are going over there. I couldn’t have  asked for a better first day really. It feels good to be appreciated and to be a part of a new beginning with potential to transform and help people. I feel like I have a greater purpose right now and I am following that passion. I went home and started doing more work for the company, because I wanted to. I haven’t been motivated like that in a long time. 

I got to float after work last night in one of the i-sopods, which I will post a picture of below so you can see how beautiful they are. My mind was a bit all over the place as it tends to be, especially with a lot of change, but I felt so much better afterwards. There was a moment in the tank that I wanted to be home because I thought about all of the amazing people in my life that I missed and wanted to be with, but I breathed through it and kept my goals and motivations in mind. I think it is very common for us to miss something or someone when they are gone (even though the idea that they are “gone” is an illusion in itself). I think a lesson I am here to learn is to just be where I am, and make that beautiful. Just because we may feel a certain way does not mean we need to act immediately on those emotions. In the pod I also realized that I was more of a brat than I cared to admit until really recently (hey, at least I am honest). I can see how sheltered I had been, and how it affected my behavior and was unintentionally conditioned into me. I feel that for someone my age, for someone where I am from at least, I was more responsible and independant than many, but my attitude was still bratty. I whined a lot when I had to do adult things sometimes, and procrastinated, and developed less than favorable habits. I expected certain things and wasn’t very mindful about my family while I lived with them. Looking back, there was so much more I could have appreciated. I definitely made progress, but I see how much more potential there is. It is all okay though. I can start where I am.

I already like the changes I see in myself so far, even though this will surely be a journey. I feel like I haven’t been as obsessive over certain things, and that is a huge relief and weight off my shoulders. I am eating a lot more mindfully and developing healthy habits for myself with ease. I suppose I am learning to enjoy the process ๐Ÿ˜Š. 

Thanks for following, and I will try and be more consistent. Have a great rest of the week! 

Here we Are!

Happy Monday friends! I hope it is treating you well so far. Yesterday my Mom and I arrived in Florida. She took the auto-train with me from Virginia. We drove to Virginia early Saturday morning and left from there later that day. It was definitely an interesting ride and I have some stories.

We waited for quite a long time when we got to Virginia, but that’s okay. When we finally got on the train, we found our room, and damn was it tiny! I wasn’t expecting a suite, but this was like a closet for two people. The room had bunk beds, but the top bunk was right on the ceiling. My mom was a trooper and took the top bunk, because it made me feel claustrophobic. 

The guy who was responsible for taking care of our train car was this man named Rasheed. He was funny. He kept making clever little comments and jokes over the speaker. I appreciated it. It is one of those situations where you had to be there to consider it funny probably, so I wont put you guys through that๐Ÿ˜‹.

There is something about traveling with people in a vehicle where you can’t get off if you wanted to. People definitely seemed happier than on planes even though this was a much longer ride. It was like out of a movie. I ate such crap because there really weren’t a lot of options, but I can forgive myself for a few days transitioning. 

I put my floating ear plugs in at night and surprisingly slept for a while. I definitely didn’t think I would be able to sleep on a train, but those little things work wonders I tell you! When I woke up we were in Jacksonville, Florida. While we were sitting and eating our crappy breakfast, our train made a loud crash and it turns out we had hit something. The male waiter went flying and fell down. One of the waitresses said that we had hit a car. It was a hard hit, but in a train it didn’t quite feel quite as intense as you would expect.

We were stopped for about an hour and a half. The rest of the crew wouldn’t tell us what happened, but I still take the woman’s word for it because she seemed like she had been doing her job for a while and had possibly experienced this before numerous times.

It was really jolting. I didn’t really know what to feel at the moment. It was scary because she told us to sit in case the crash wasn’t over. Those few moments were surreal. If anything makes you surrender, it is something along those lines. Thankfully, noone was severely hurt on the train. Maybe one or two got a litte injured, but it could have been worse. As for the car, I have no idea. I hope the people were okay, but I have no way of knowing that. I said a little prayer, but that’s obviously all I could do. 

After all that, we got to where we had to be. I arrived at my apartment in the afternoon. My roomates were amazing and helped my Mom and I set up a lot of my stuff. They were so nice and helpful and I really appreciated that. My Mom and I went to my grandparents house that night to sleep.

Today is my last full day with my Mom for a while, so that is a little rough to wrap my head around. It has been a gift to have her with me on this journey, and I know things will be great for both of us soon. I know we will have a lot more adventures in the future and it will be beautiful. Change is never easy for me, or for most people. However, it is important for growth.

My bosses emailed me and told me they wanted me floating Wednesday through Friday this week, so that made me happy. What a way to be welcomed! It made me feel a lot more excited and happy to be where I am. 

I just wanted to give you guys an update on what has been going on! I am going to enjoy the last day while my Mom is here, but wanted to check in. I will keep you all posted. I will hopefully have some pictures later today. My phone doesn’t have a lot of space, so it’s hit or miss right now. 

Have a great day! 

Looking Back, Life is so Surreal… Remember Your Intentions Always

Good morning friends. Time is a weird concept right now. I realized this morning that I only have 2 more nights in my bed! In 2 days my room will be a lot more empty and I will be on the road! Well, kind of. My Mom and I are going to put my car on a train and take the train down. On the tracks is more accurate. 

My intentions for this post is to bring up the importance of intentions and visualization and the extraordinary impact they can have! I guess I heard about it for the first time from The Secret, about 5 years back. I got all motivated and made a board with goals and experiences/things I wanted to have  (or thought I wanted to have). Looking back I didn’t fully believe. I was still looking for HOW things would come about, which I can still do at times.

There is something about making decisions to do something that carries with it a level of faith. Even if you don’t feel anything, do yourself a solid and keep up the positive habit for the potential it can have. I have never been one for affirmations. I always dreaded them until recently. I kind of still do before I read them each morning, to be honest with you. I guess that is still just part of my attitude when I see how much progress there still is to make. One day I aspire to feel more excited about how far I still have to go, but I am not there yet! Everyone is different. I can be honest and say that it takes me serious effort and consistent positive habits to remain a positive person. It does not come naturally to me, but it is a privlige for me to persist and be how I want to be. I also take full responsibility for my life. 

Excuse my tangents, you know me by now ๐Ÿ˜‹. What I was getting at was that I really looked at my board this morning and took it all in. I saw how much I achieved in such a short  period of time and how as of now, it looks like things are flowing in accordance with my dreams. I have  definitely made some adjustments and my dreams have evolved for sure, but the essence of it all is coming true. It came together quite magically. It would have seemed rather impossible for all of this to come together in the timing that it has. I wouldn’t have believed it was possible if you would have asked me last year. I sure hoped it would be possible, but my left brain would have said hell no! 

The past year I got certified in Corrective Exercise, changed career focuses (though I will still train), improved my relationship with my self and family, learned to let people in more, got off an anxiety medication, started remembering my childhood more (that was an issue), found a job I am excited to be a part of, found a place to live AND will be living where I always wanted to live as a kid. I am just going with it for now, but have no idea where life will bring me. I know it will be cool though.

I view my board differetly than I did when I started it. My idea of living a good life has transformed. Rather than viewing it as a set point, I view it as a journey that I am on right now, and can improve on each moment. Instead of attaching my happiness to an end result, I know that the rest of these experiences and things will come as a result of being present and being grateful. Trusting is a big thing also. Yes it can feel weird trusting the unseen, but just try for now and be honest with where you’re at.

I didnt post this to brag about all that I achieved. If anything, I want people to take away that it is less about the material things and titles than we may think. I believe we should all aim high and do what we are being directed to if it feels right. However, it may help to analyze WHY we want to do something. Worst situation, we persue something that doesn’t end up being what we believed our purpose was. In this case, it is best to try and not feel like you failed or gave up or wasted resources. You didnt fail, you are allowed to change your mind A LOT! You can always make more money. I would go crazy if I spent significant time thinking of all the money I spent irresponsibly. Just move on with grace.

It is amazing what we can do with any amount of intention. Even the littlest amount of faith can build up a momentum in us. We are never a victim of our circumstances. I feel for everyone, because I know how hard and impossible life can feel. Take it from me though, that you CAN get through it, and eventually thrive. I wouldn’t say I am thriving yet, but I feel that it is truly possible now and that is a gift.

You don’t have to know exactly what you want right now, just start with where you are and go from there. The best thing you can do is continue a potentially positive habit. Time will pass anyway, so just stick with it. Do it for yourself and for others you may cross paths with. 

Much love๐Ÿ’œ๐Ÿ˜Š

“Ego-Death” and Things

My final days as a New Yorker have been beautiful and eye-opening. A lot of realizations continue to come to me, and I appreciate the journey, as intense as it can feel.ย 

Last night was powerful. I felt a shift to where I felt like a weight was lifted. I thought of how fast life really goes, and I thought about what I really wanted out of life. I thought about what I would like to experience as well. I considered what I wanted to feel like in life, and who I wanted to continue becoming.ย 

I saw how very few things go according to plan in life. We might think we know the way a situation will go, and then it plays out in a totally different way. I also saw my attachment to the outcomes of situations and how I had previously believed that my happiness would come from being at a certain point in life.

I saw so clearly how fearful I was of being forgotten, and then I just felt how impermanent it all is! I cried it out for about 20 minutes and then felt a sense of relief. I know it will all be okay, and I actually feel fabulous today. I don’t particularly like the term “ego-death,” to be honest, becauase I feel like it can be misinterpreted easily. It is impossible to not have an ego. It affects all of us on certain levels at different times throughout our lives. I did however, have a recognition of the idea that humans seek to be defined in some way. We categorize everything, and label it. We need to know the time, and where we are, and what is going on. We have constant desires for things to go our way. In this moment, I realized I have no idea what the hell I am without those things. I also know that this is okay. I feel relieved and can breathe easier today.ย 

So anyway, thats where I am at. I leave New York for Melbourne, Florida early in the morning on Saturday. I am almost all packed and am taking it all in. Tomorrow will be ย nice because it will be my last float session at my favorite place in NY, and then I am going out with some friends to say goodbye to most of them. I have a whole new level of appreciation and love for life, and gratitude is coming easier than ever.ย 

I hope the week has been good. I shall keep you posted my friends!ย