Time is a crazy concept to wrap your head around. Though it can be considered an illusion, it is pretty fascinating when you really think about it. I find it insane how certain moments feel like they last forever while others fly by before you can fully process them. At times of great transition, I have always found it helpful to reflect. These times are an opportunity shift my perspective and solidify who I want to be in life, along with what I want to give or share with the world. There has also never been as good a time as now to practice being and doing these things. There has never been a better time to create the future I want.
These past few years have brought with them many moments that felt like forever. It also brought some I wish I can relive. I see how often I limited myself, thinking of life as one particular way. I kept myself stuck at times. There were also times where I thought I knew more than I did. I made up rigid rules about how life had to be done. I resisted change. I was never the adventurous Sagittarius that I should have been free to be. I was influenced to be quite the opposite. I never really traveled and lived in a bubble for most of my life. No wonder I felt like I was suffocating. I let fear keep me where I was because I hated change so much. I always wanted to be somewhere other than when I was, but now I see that “point” doesn’t exist. We have to create with what we have now. We can only start where we are. I see how tight I held on to things, and the damage that results from such attachments. It scares me to imagine picking up and leaving to settle down in a place that is unfamiliar to me, but it excites me at the same time. This is a new beginning for me.
I have reached a point of almost adulthood where I feel that I am ready to start preparing to leave the nest and try living in a different state. I have been getting the nudge to get out of here and see somewhere completely new. I am still unsure of where exactly I want to go. There is so much of the country and world I have yet to see. It is time for me to trust that I will be guided where I am meant to go.
I see all the things that I am grateful for now with the knowledge that anything can change in an instant. I can see the things that I can live without, and what I need to have around me to live happily and comfortably. I don’t have to live the same type of life as most people do.
I will miss my family and the few close friends I still have in New York, but I know I can visit and they can come visit me. I don’t know the first thing about starting over, so if anyone has any advice I would greatly appreciate it. I started making a pros and cons list of the areas I have been considering. So far I’m considering Florida, Arizona, Colorado and Oregon. If you love where you’re at, let me know and I will look into it. I am looking for an area that has a good amount of conscious laid back people. Warm weather is prefered, but I am keeping my options open and I have an open mind. I’m looking forward to sharing my pros and cons list in a later post as I continue to research, as it is quite amusing 😝